Depressed

[Araka Itsu]

Hey, what's up?

Yup, I'm feeling depressed. I feel like this every so often, but I don't know what to do about and I was hoping someone would help me with it.

What I feel is feeling alone. Last year, I had so many friends! We were all happy and no one was left out. But I moved and so this past year I had only a few friends and, plainly, most of them suck. Two of them are drug addicts. Two are attention whore and the last thinks I'm supposed to give all my attention to her and to no one else (which also went she didn't want anyone else's attention.

Then I have a few neighbor friends that give me attention only when it looks like I needed it. Plus, they're a lot prettier than me with their long, slender legs, pink lips and have the flattest bellies I have ever seen. They wear all the cutest clothes while I have to wear t-shirts because I over perperate (I'm part german).

Then when I talk about myself, no one here seems to really care. They just want to talk about themselves.

And when I call my friends from last year, they make me feel happy and make me laugh. You just never really know how good it feels to have someone there to make you laugh.

(Since I'm typing this, you can't see it, but I'm crying)

And when I come to them about this kind of subject, they tell me so many things that make me feel important. It makes me happy, but its temporary, and I know that well.

But once that good feeling goes away, I feel like crying but I can't other wise my parents get on to me for it, but it's not like I can tell them. They'll blame it on the fact I spend too much time on the computer or that it's some health problem.

And plus, it's because of their jobs that we moved here, so I really shouldn't complain.

What should I do?

[Lucia Alexandrite]

Move to Canada. We don't have as many bitches and drug addict up here *nods*

But in all seriousness, if your friends that you have now are being complete attention seekers, have you thought of trying to find other friends that will make you feel happier then you are now.

[Araka Itsu]

No, but apperently they've been together for a long time. And that girl that thinks she "owns" me follows me EVERYWHERE. No matter what I do. She's an annoying bitch, but I only put up with her for a year because her mother and father got divorced last year and then (two months later after the divorce) her mother dies.

And I wish I could move. I wished my dad never got the promotion. I wish that I was still with my friends a year before.

[shoryu]

I may act like an idiot on the c-box but I'm actually quite reserved in real life. Anyway, what you should do is boldly tell your friends that they shouldn't act like asses, and try to think about how you feel for moments, seriously, if they can't do that, they aren't your friends. Make them know that you are only a person and you can only say or do so much, always make sure they grasp that, and tell them to think out what you say thoroughly, otherwise seek friends that do understand, or you will just end up hurting yaself more.

[Lenora Annalise]

I'm sorry, that all sucks :(

I can relate somewhat, I go through periods where I feel depressed and alone sometimes (I only have one really good friend, though I'm thankful to at least have her). What I usually find helps me the most when I feel like that is trying to add a new hobby of some sort. A new hobby gives you something new to be excited about and think about, and sometimes you can meet new people that way, too.

But I think shoryu is right. Friendship isn't supposed to be one sided, it's supposed to be a partner ship. The situation with the girl who always wants your attention sounds complicated, and it's too bad about what happened to her parents and her mother, but at the same time, it's not your responsibly to have to take on that burden yourself, now. You should try not to think about the good feelings you get when you talk to your old friends as temporary, either. Even if you can't be with them right now, it sounds like you still have great friends out there who care about you.

Just remember that no part of life goes on the same way forever, too. Even though that unfortunately is usually true for good times, it's also true for the harder times. I hope you start feeling better soon!

[shoryu]

Anyways, it is what you choose, don't think of us as the ones giving you the advice, as more so what you feel is right and how you act upon it. It's your choice, you make it, you have to live with it, friends aren't always friends as you see them, it's crazy, but the norm for friendship, you will probably only find three good friends in this world of ours, and with that the choices are limited, and with that limitation, you can only go through life and actually find them.

Besides, in most cases, while friends think that you should do this and that, most "friends" would not do such a thing.. So don't allow them to goad you, distribute your emotions to counteract your emotions to create positive reinforcement of themselves, make their situations the least of your worries because, even with many people within this world, their is one person you can count on, sometime snot even family. Yourself.

So, my last statement. You're a young, intelligent woman, don't allow yourself to be stressed with things you don't have to be unless you must times are tough already why should you allow that to make more idiocy in your life, more obstacles to climb, don't place the word on your back, decrease your burden, and you will become refreshed, stress is apart of life, but most of it is forced on people...

BACK TO BEING UNSERIOUS!!!

JUST WHO THE HELL AM I?!!

[Araka Itsu]

A BIG TEDDY BEAR VERSION OF NARUTO!!!

[shoryu]

I'm a teddy, for all the big boobed girls to squeeze!

[Araka Itsu]

More depressed shizz.

My parents yelled at me again: wanting everything done, and done their way, that I don't have a life, that I'm not learning any "life skills" by playing on the computer all day, and so on. And then when they're done yelling atdone yelling at me, they chance the sujbect, as if nothing happened. And when I refuse to change the subject, the say I "over react".

Then I found out today that all my friends are leaving on the last week of this month. One already moved without saying anything then I realized one of my more closer friends is also moving this weekend (the weekend I've been lookking forward to all year because its my first ever animw con) and didn't tell me. ONE OF MY OTHER FRIENDS TOLD ME SHE WAS MOVING.

God, am I that...ivisible or lame to be around that no one wants to tell me anything? I'm such a mes..

[Lucia Alexandrite]

Aww. Araka. *huggles* At times like these I wish we all knew each other so we could hang out and rant about our lives. We could be like secret friends, because I know MY parents would freak out at me if I was hanging out with some 5-2 years older then me. We could just rant, play games, talk about anime all that shit. Then we could go on with our lives. Plus I want a punching bag so I could take out my fury while ranting so I feel much calmer after . But enough about me.

It sucks that you're friends did that. My parents did that to me once. I thought we where going to stay in one house for longer then we have stayed at a house before. I had made really good friends. Then my dad told me that we where moving in a week and had to get packed. It was my fault for not understanding why a whole shit load of stuff was being boxed up.

You're parents didn't need to do that. I hate it when people change the subject, I call them on it and then force them back into the orginal subject until everyone is completely done with the convo. They expecially don't have the right to say you "over react" when their the ones who are spazzing out.

If it where me who was one of you're friends, I wouldn't leave you out of anything. I would tell you everything first before going to anyone else. Even if it where a spazz or something like that.

As you can tell by the cbox. My mom spazzes at me for getting less then a B in school even though here grades don't start counting until Grade 10 then you have to have at least a 3.5 grade average to get into a good college. I'm even willing to do summer school to do better but NOOOOOO. She has to bitch and complain to make herself feel better and make me feel shitty. D=<